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"Do not meedle in the affairs of wolves, for you are savory and taste good with ketsup."

You took apart this wolf and could not find my nature. If you take apart a car, you will not find its shape. If you delve deep into me, you will not see me. We are talking about Buddha-nature. Wolves have no Buddha-nature. Canines have no Buddha-nature. You have no Buddha-nature. I have no Buddha-nature. But sometimes, Buddha-nature can manifest wolfness, or canineness, or youness, or meness. And sometimes not. These separate wolfy things are an illusion. There is wolf. It has wolfy nature. It is simply wolf. A wolf is not a paw. A wolf is not a cold nose. A wolf is not a woof. To consider that a wolf is just these parts is so ridiculously silly I wonder why anyone would suggest such a daft argument. But after all your talk, after all my talk, there is Wolf, and it is all of me, yet it is not me at all.









My Full Legal Name: Wolf Proctor

My Occupation: Vet Tech / Bone Collector / Sharptooth


This LiveJournal is my repository for my thoughts, feelings, and ideas, as well as an ongoing documentation of things going on in my life. I use a complex system of metaphor, filters, and catchbasins to redirect this outflow... there's a lot going on behind the "friends only' side of this journal. If you interested, request an add, and I'll consider it.

I post here because, in the end, I need to get outside of myself every once in a while.

I run on my own soulfire - red, fiery, warm, and growing with every passing moment. The fact that I share any of this is a choice, and I do it for my own reasons and desires... I have my own agenda.

*He scratches the surface of The Veil, searing his paw with icy heat. He pulls away slowly, winces in pleasure and pain mixed together, and flexes his paw...*

Listen carefully. The deep song that I sing is subtle, intricate, and often unspoken. I sing it because I am who I am, I howl because I can feel it as no other creature, and I will sing it to whomever I will and whenever I choose. Just know that I WILL remember. All of it. The reason? I know where my heart is, and this life is cherished. No more, no less.

*eyes glow in the moonlight*

I know what I desire, and I'll allow that which I need, as well... yet I am just jaded enough to see past the fantasy that what I can give will not likely ever be given in return.

I am one complex motherfucker, and with me, you get it all. You don't get to pick and choose what bits are appetizing. My coldness comes with warmth. My rage comes with compassion. My sharp teeth come with a smile. My lust comes with a soft underbelly. I am equally wolf and all too human...

And yet I am none of these things at all.

I am a child of nature,
A child of war,
Master of the hunt,
An ancient reborn...

I tell it like it really is. No politically correct insanity, no obfuscation or circumlocution, no bullshit. This is who I am.

Evolve... or be lunch.


(Your best bet to IM me is with MSN Messenger... but don't hold your breath. I'm pretty damned busy.)